Rewriting the Script by Carolyn Gage
Submitted by Sarsha on Mon, 11/29/2010 - 10:51pmI read an excerpt from this memoir of Carolyn Gage's that struck a chord with me. Her description of herself as a child with elaborate fantasy worlds, her internal drama full of characters each with their own name and personality-I mean every little kid does this to some extent. I did it like it was my job. and she goes on to discuss her difficulty transitioning to the age where you know you aren't supposed to play with dolls anymore-um, check and double check. As an adult Carolyn Gage is a playwright, so she continues to channel this need for an alternative world into her plays. I stopped writing, stopped producing art and slowly withered as a teen and a young adult. I need it so much though, that I think I didn't stop doing it. Always, when I have time to myself and let my mind wander I have conversations and dreams that are my way of processing life. I'm not sure where else I take it, the need to expose the inner storyline. He r writing really got to me...
I have to just repeat what
I have to just repeat what she wrote here:
There is a popular song from the 1970's tha contains the lyric "Every refuge has its price." The price I paid for my dissociative delights among the dolls was an emergence into adolescence was an overabundance of romantic scenarios and very little experience with real relationships, including one with myself. The only tools with which I was adept were magical thinking and denial, and those became my compass and sextant for navigating through life. Charting my course for perpetually elusive, mythical destinations, I ignored the small craft wreckage I was leaving in my wake.
By Carolyn Gage
Sounds like a really
Sounds like a really interesting book, thanks for sharing that.