Hi there, I am going to maybe be off the radar for a while.  I am kinda burnt out on trauma.  I had a terroble session with the new therapist where she was saying ADHD is caused by trauma and she's wrong, and so she is trying to again rewrite my history and I don't think I can trust her when her information is so not accurate, plus she didn't really get what I wa ssaying, my number one trigger in life.  The only thing that destaibilizes me is therapy because the therapists are so awful.  I am wondering if I should be in therapy at all, but yeah I have PTSD so I have to.

I am hoping to go to Two Rivers Hopsital and do some real trauma work, I cannot take the half assed shit.  Or maybe I'll just be happy.  I have been very happy and calm and social and joyful and sane unless I see a therapist and then I am suicidal and terrified and hitting myself because I think I cannot get better because they suck.  But ummm, how come I am only like that when I see a therapist and not when I am living my life?

So anyway, I think I need a break from trauma talk, and so if I am not around, I am Ok, I just want to keep myself safe and that means not being really focused on treatements since they are my main trigger....

Blessed being!  xo xo