You're off meds,,that is fantastic! I have no idea what poisonous cocktail of garbage you may have been subjected to, and I hope that if there was a reasonable amount of taper-off time (as is required because of the vast side-effects all medications handed out for bi-polar illicit) you observed it,,but, in my own experiences of being drugged for 'ADHD' at 15, leading to anxiety, and 'xanex', etc. I was eventually  so strung out on filthy drugs that I was hopeless and sought 'help'. That help came in the form of a Bi-Polar diagnosis and a suggestion to take anti-seizure meds.

I had a seizure within a week! I finally realized the astronomical dose of xanex I had been gradually assimilated on (9mgs a day) was actually likely to be causing all of the problems. I had to discover this from a resource board from the UK, becaue America does not like to talk about the 40 years of experience they have with benzodiazepines and the reality that they know nothing good can come fom them.

It took finding an honest Psychiatrist (almost like looking for a Priest who doesn't like to fondle young boys), and ticking to a rigorous and horrendous tapering process that lasted nearly a year, but I got off of that crap.

The way that I feel now would best be described (if it has to be ascribed a name) as low-level Bi-Polar II. More than likely it is just the protracted withdrawls from the benzos, which can last forever, and effect my energy levels and memory. That said, It is 100x better than the hell I endured on all of those meds. It disgusts me to realize I never needed any of it and the pills are being more and more recognized to cause the conditions they are said to be prescribed to treat.

This is a society that does not like right-brained, artistic people. People like us are marginalized because we ask questions, we do not just allow ourselves to be programmed, and often, our passion makes us likely candidates for leadership.

More and more I see a pattern among my personal heroes. Almost every one of them could be diagnosed with ADHD or Bi-Polar Disorder (and some were). But, it seems our depraved society wants to tell anyone that even considers, for one second, that feelings and intuition are normal, natural processes that often result in enlightenment and have contributed to the composition of some of our most revered novels, musical albums, or scientific discoveries, that they have a 'disorder' and require medication.

It is time we started recognizing that pharmaceutical companies, insurance companies, lobbyists, and the corrupt power structure of this world all stand to benefit infinitely by producing documentation that tells us immediately that we are likely to commit suicide, live 2nd class lives full of uncertainty and sadness,,,and that we are basically facing an uncertain future in which we must be slaves to Psychiatrists, Prescription drugs that don't work (because they can't work,,because there is nothing wrong to start with), and the complete disregard of our own hopes and dreams.

It is not us who are miserable. It is the boring, lifeless drones who surround us, that are miserable and cannot stand that there is a whole subsegment of society who dream bigger, understand more, and do not believe in settling for anything less than the greatness we are capable of.

And so they drug us,,and the drugs cause extreme symptoms like 'mania' (I had never felt 'mania' until I took a drug for bi-polar' and I never experienced it again after I stopped that drug). And when we complain, they add more drugs and confuse our minds so that we are always convinced that we are just shy of the 'perfect cocktail' of magic medicine. But, if you have spent time with other people diagnosed 'Bi-Polar' you realize that no one is happy,,there is no perfect combination of drugs,,and that the whole thing is a big hoax.

Th further down the hole you go,,the more you detatch from your intuition which tells you this isn't right, and the more you buy into the whole lie. Usually, when we are hurting, and a person in a white lab coat tells us he/she has an answer,,we snatch it up. But the reality, to me, is that people like us are more in touch with things we do not realize are very real. For instance; I am personally quite affected when I see another human being suffering needlessly. The same can be said about animals. But, even though a number of the most enlightened Scientists, Psychologists and Scholars recognie that there is a specific energy frequency within which all human life exists (4-8Hz-I believe), if you are one of the people who can tap into that awareness, and you mention it,,you are labeled 'grandiose' or 'hypomanic'. 

Now, Nikola Tesla and Wilhelm Reich both figured these things out (more than 100 years ago with Tesla),,and what came of them? Tesla had his financial backing from the filthy J.P. Morgan (banking cartel swine and oil tycoon) pulled because he had developed electromagnetic technology that could prevent nuclear weapons from being detonated AND could provide, at no cost, energy for every person on the planet. That was not in the interests of filthy mafia tycoon inbreds and so, Tesla died in obscurity and his technologies have been perverted into weapons that allow mass mind control, and can disrupt the atmosphere to literally cause drastic weather changes,,including inducing hurricanes (see H.A.A.R.P.).

Reich was a Psychologist (a pupil of Freud who fell out of favor with the famous Psychologist when he disagreed that all human beings were born evil, and stated that the truth was quite the opposite. All human beings were born with innate knowledge of morality and that knowledge was perverted as soon as they came into this corrupt, contrived world).

Reich went on to explore and develop technology centered around Orgone Energy (the very energy I mentioned that exists beyween all living things). He rigorously pursued and designed technology to use this energy to better human kind. Once again, along came Rockefeller and Morgan and Reich was declared insane and forced to spend the last several years of his life incarcerated, supposedly for insanity. His books were burned by the U.S.Government. Reich was certainly not insane. What he was, was a genius whose technology could have provided numerous low cost or free alternatives to remedy problems that would have bettered humanity and taken power away from the Bankers and the major Corporations. "There's no money in a cure." And so, whenever anyone comes along with these gifts they are silenced. For, if we all realized that wecould have free energy, forever, that would not involve the plundering of the earths cheap energy resources (coal and oil) which are now drying up, the cartels and liars that enslave society would be bankrupt overnight,,and the corrupt 'money as debt' system that has been established for us, would collapse like a house of cards.

Only once we, the gifted champions who represent the modern incarnations of Reich and Tesla, stop hanging our heads low and subscribing to the disease model that is cleverly arranged for us, but instead hold our heads high and unite, will we collectively look around. AND TRUST ME,,ONCE YOU START TO LOOK AROUND,,WITH A CLEAR HEAD AND TWO FEET WELL PLANTED ON THE GROUND,,,YOU WILL BEGIN TO SEE LIES,,EVERYWHERE.

We are being lied to.

"The only difference between me and a madman is that I am not mad."-Dahli