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Submitted by medicatedbychoice on Mon, 05/04/2009 - 9:11pm

Well, as you can see by my username I've made a choice to be better through medication. Why did I join this group, you ask? Well, I wanted to find people with similar 'dysfunctions.' No, I won't belittle anyone for their approach to dealing with mental illness. Nor will I let anyone coerce me into doing things their way. What I can say is that I am in control of my illness, medication or not. I read the newsweek article about the Icarus Project and I wanted to learn how different people deal with their illnesses. I fully understand the point of view about medication....I've been on meds for a while now...and let me tell you, my poetry was more intense and passionate before such time...essentially I have pharmaceutical writer's block!!! I can still write, but it doesn't feel the same...and yet I still find it as a way to express emotions that I shall not let overcome. But, one thing is for sure......it is time to remove the stigmas associated with mental illness!!!! Well, that's all for now....I look forward to hearing comments...thank you

I totally respect your

Submitted by rabidpsychosis21 on Tue, 05/05/2009 - 3:50am.

I totally respect your choice. More power to ya! I hope you continue to do well, and write more blogs :-)

even with meds, I still have

Submitted by medicatedbychoice on Tue, 05/05/2009 - 9:37pm.

even with meds, I still have a little bit of breakthrough......lately, it has been a weird feeling of being a totally different person indoors versus outdoors. The meds I am on now work very well...actually the first med I was on worked great, but I gained 60 ****ing pounds....all the meds in between then and now...well they just didn't do ****!! What I really want and need to know is how people can cope without meds?? Anyone have any insight on that one....I went on for years not really realizing something wasn't right...then I was given an ultimatum...so I sought help...and I'm glad I did...looking back on things...I really was ****ed up...I remember one day when I flushed all the pills in the house down the tolight because I thought I was being poisoned...anyways...I am learning a little more about myself in that sometimes, but not all the time, I can feel episodes coming on. I am wondering if any of you all can feel it?? I think that has been a huge step in my recovery.....I haven't had any full blown psychotic episodes in quite some time and that is saying a lot given that there are sometimes lapses of when I can actually afford to get meds....but anyhow...hope to hear from more of you?!?!?!?!