My Fireball of a Dad Died 20 Years Ago
Submitted by scatter on Tue, 12/04/2007 - 2:08pmand this is the obituary two of his best friends wrote for him
Paul Du Brul, 1938-87 (P.3 Village Voice December 29, 1987)
New York lost a secret treasure last Friday when Paul Du Brul died at the age of 49. For 40 years he had lived every day in pain with cystic fibrosis, the crippling disease that was expected to kill him long before it did. The struggle to survive his illness ruled his body more and more as the years passed, but not his life. Paul conquered his fate with his character, and he became a one-man “brain trust” for a dozen of the city’s progressive causes—a role he continued until the day he died.
The public he served did not know him well, for Paul did his work behind the scenes and usually let others enjoy the credit. But if there had been no Paul Du Brul, there would have been no legislation to test and treat ghetto children poisoned by lead paint; the idea and the crusade were his. Had Du Brul not terrorized Ruth Messinger into running for City Council in 1977 after her exhausting defeat in an Assembly race, the city’s finest public servant would probably still be a social worker; for the past 10 years she sought his advice (and listened to his tirades) at least once a day.
The community organizer Steve Max once explained that Paul had mastered the art of “pre-arrival,” by which he meant that when you thought you had discovered the new and crucial issue, Paul was already there asking what took you so long to join him. One such occasion was the campaign against Westway, the landfill boondoggle that sleeps with the Hudson striped bass. In 1973, when there were fewer than 10 people preparing to resist the highway project, Du Brul was among the prophetic few: bursting with ideas, organizing the organizers, and demanding a commitment equal to his own. As a man whose lungs were vulnerable to automobile pollution, and one who knew that thousands more had trouble breathing, he took it personally each time a politician broke his promise to trade Westway for transit funding. In September 1985, after 12 years of urban political warfare, he exhulted in the final victory.
Paul did not, of course, see each campaign he undertook as an isolated instance of injustice. He was an articulate and passionate exponent of democratic socialism, whose deepest hope in the last few years was that the warring factions of the left would at last bury their ancient feuds. At the same time, he was an independent thinker whose response to the newest political fad was often a corrosive skepticism.
The intellectual Du Brul came by his class politics honestly. He grew up Irish in Elmhurst, the son of a laborer, and attended City University because it was tuition-free. Upon graduation he joined the furniture workers union as an organizer in the open-shop South.
Paul was a Queens kind of radical. He preferred beer to wine, John Lennon to Paul McCartney, and Robert Kennedy to Eugene McCarthy.
Because his socialist idealism was alloyed with streetwise realism, Paul could effectively goad the consciences of an array of politicians, labor leaders, and journalists (including us and others at the Voice). Once you became his friend you quickly learned he was never satisfied—a fact such figures as Robert Abrams, Mario Cuomo, and Bella Abzug came to understand the hard way. If he thought a close friend—or an employer—was deluded or lazy, he enjoyed saying so in a thunderclap of obscenity. Not everyone who knew Paul loved him. But for those whose egos could bear his withering scrutiny, the rewards of his intense loyalty were great.
Had he had assignment himself the lifelong role of political catalyst, Paul Du Brul would have been known as an outstanding newspaperman. He began his activist career as an editor of the Hunter College Arrow and later wrote superb pieces for the Voice, some of which became the basis for his collaborations with Jack Newfield on The Permanent Government. Paul was gratified when John Kenneth Galbraith, in review of the book in The New York Times, compared to Lincoln Steffens. It was the Steffens tradition of personalized muckraking that appealed to Paul’s rage. He believed in naming names.
Not long after he was awarded the Seal of the City University last September, Paul’s health deteriorated sharply. Tethered to a respirator after his last hospitalization, he continued to fight against the dependency that seemed to him and unexpected indignity. Yet even his own suffering was material for Paul’s brave black humor.
During the last two years, Paul was confined to his apartment. Friends came to him for advice and counsel, to look in awe at him and his wife Liza, and to recognize that their own problems were really manageable.
What Paul wanted most was that the caring shown him by his friends would, when he passed away, be given to his beloved, courageous son Sascha. There is a story about his father that became Sascha’s favorite. When The Permanent Government was published 10 years ago, the publicist Howard Rubinstein purchased a few dozen copies for his clients whom the book excoriated and invited the authors up to his office to inscribe them.
Newfield bowed to conformity, penning bland, polite inscriptions to the likes of Stanley Friedman, Harry Hemsley, and Roy Cohn. But when he glanced over at the copies Paul was autographing, he found blistering insults and threats in every one.
To a major landlord Paul wrote: “Best wishes to a greedy parasite.”
To a real estate lawyer he wrote: “To John, who has murdered whole neighborhoods.”
To a labor consultant he wrote: “You are a social climber and a traitor to the working class.”
Paul never gave the bastards an inch, and that is one of the reasons he was loved and will be missed.
--Jon Conason & Jack Newfield
Good article to share.
Thanks your father sounds like he was a good peacemaker for the left.
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i just sent this email to a bunch of folks
and i'm sitting in the icarus office about to head out into the grey afternoon streets...
it was 20 years ago and one day that my dad, Paul DuBrul, died in his bed on 104th street and West End Avenue.
It was two days after my 13th birthday.
The night before my Bar Mitzvah.
It was the single most formative event in my entire life, before or since, cleaved a split in my internal historical time like B.C. to A.D..
I'm sending this email out to some of my friends and chosen family and support people because I feel compelled to share with you this piece of my history, where I come from and part of how I got to be the way I am. This is always such a bitter and strange time of year for me, the holidays and my birthday, and part of the pain is that I have a hard time finding the words to talk about why it's so fucking hard. I've learned from experience that my seemingly self-centered thoughts can be really helpful to other people, if only to remind them about what's important or to feel connected to something larger than themselves. I'm trying to do both here, for myself as much as anyone. Hopefully, like a well crafted magic spell, it works and then maybe I don't have to feel so lonely and sad around Christmastime. So here are a few words, and if you have a few moments you should read this man's obituary cause he was a very cool and interesting guy:
https://site.icarusprojectarchive.org/paul-dubrul-obituary
My dad's death broke my heart in a way that is never going to completely heal and it filled me with rage and sorrow and a gaping hole in my psychic guts. To this day, in the back of my mind, I always worry that the people I love are going to suddenly die or leave me. I treasure my friendships, but I stay prepared by not letting anyone get too close to me. I'm traumatized by the intensity of his fire just being snuffed out and not really understanding what was happening at the time.
My dad was dying of cystic fibrosis my whole childhood, in and out of the hospital, hooked up to an oxygen machine the last years of his life. And he was in a lot of pain. I remember him like the Nexus 6 android in Blade Runner that knew his time was running out and was doing everything he could to stay alive. He read all the medical journals about CF. He took the experimental medications. He had surgery where they cut out part of his intestines. He took lots of pills and did these breathing treatments with a loud machine everyday alone in his room. He challenged his doctors to keep up with him. But it was only a matter of time and the clock was always ticking.
When I was little he read stories to me every night and when I was scared of the dark I'd wake up in the middle of the night and crawl into his bed.
I remember him like a big tough lion with a thick, pointed bright red beard and piercing blue eyes.
Raised working class Irish-Catholic in Queens, my dad was a tough guy and had a bad temper, but he fiercely loved me. He made it really clear.
And I fiercely loved him back. I was so crushed when he died.
I think my father's death sensitized me to a world of psychic pain and loss that has probably made my life much harder but has simultaneously allowed me to walk through doors that most people usually don't get to walk through. I understand suffering in a way that allows strangers to trust me because they can see it in my eyes or something, that I speak the language of misery and loss. I'm an empath.
My dad was also a brilliant writer and political strategist. He believed in the power of words to shape the course of history and he clearly passed that belief onto me.
He was a union organizer and an early civil rights activist and behind the scenes agitator on many fronts. He talked to me from the time I was an infant about all his plans and visions and ideals and I don't remember it but it must have sunken in. In many ways he taught me not to trust authority and the ruling class and about the importance of using my voice to speak truth to power.
Being my dad's kid was a lot of pressure, he clearly had high hopes for my life, gave me everything he could give because he knew he was going to die. I get chills reading his writing sometimes because it's obvious he knew I was going to be reading it when I was older. Sometimes I can hear his voice speaking to me like Obi-Wan Kenobi from Star Wars. I was his transport to the future, I was the one to carry out his dreams and visions. There have been times when I've felt like I was possessed by the spirit of my father. And I don't think it's just because I'm crazy, I think there's actually something to it.
In my 20's I went out and traveled and rode trains and lived on Earth First! road blocades and in Zapatista villages in Chiapas, Mexico. I've spent much of my life since I was 14 years old involved in political struggles and right now feel like I'm right in the middle of an incredibly vibrant social movement many thousands deep that was clearly influenced by my father's radical political analysis. He's clearly living on through me. And while I was traveling all those years there was a part of me that was doing it because I knew he couldn't have done it. And he would have loved it. This whole time part of me has felt like I've been living out his revolutionary fantasizes.
So that link up there was his obituary that ran on the 3rd page of the Village Voice in December of 1987. It was written by two of his best friends, a few days after he died, on his own manual typewriter in his apartment on the Upper West Side of Manhattan. One of those friends died three years ago and was like an uncle to me in the last years of his life. The other one hasn't talked to me in almost a decade but spent a bunch of time with me when I was growing up. I know few of my dad's old friends. He died just as I became a teenager and I think his friends mostly didn't know what to make of me and I certainly didn't have much interest in them. I rejected the straight politics of my family and hung out with the anarchists and punks on the Lower East Side. I was more interested in riots and squats and community gatherings than elections and democratic socialist conferences. I came of age in a very different political atmosphere, and there wasn't a lot of overlap between the worlds. Its only been in the last few years that I've begun to make old connections and make sense of all the splintered leftist political history of the 60's and 70's.
All this time later I'm so grateful to be alive, to have made it to 33 full of stories and lessons. And I feel part of a powerful political lineage. And I want to find his old friends while I still can. And I want the people in my life to know where I come from because I'm proud of it. So here I am, 20 years later, with Sergeant Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band playing in the back of my head, doing what I've grown up to do: tell history and stories and try to make some sense of the cards I've been dealt.
If you have a couple moments, please read my dad's obituary and laugh and marvel with me at what a badass he was.
mad love from manhattan island at the end of 2007,
sascha