Need Sunshine
Submitted by missmix on Fri, 01/02/2009 - 12:40amI am drowning in gray skies, I need sunshine in my eyes. How am I supposed to have a good attitude and lots of energy when the sky is dumping slush on me? Yes, I am whining and crying in my tea. I am so worn out from the days of shoveling that when the sun does come out I am to tired to get out there and enjoy it unless I am shoveling out so I can get out with the car if I have to.
Oh God give me Spring. I am putting one attitude foot in front of the other this week and pushing through this mental and literal gray cloud on top of me. Tonight I went out and brushed my horse for an hour and talked to her. If I do things at night then I can trick myself into not caring what the day looks like. Night is always dark. Cold or warm, night is always the same when I do things. The lights are on and they are consistantly light.
Wow, I 'm glad I'm writting more. I never thought of it that way before. No wonder I like being up and doing things at night! To bad I can't do all that shoveling in the dark. I have anemia also so I guess I should probably be getting more sleep. It would be nice if I could just do that. Well I can snuggle up with my dogs now and try I suppose. I think I am also in the wrong part of the country. Wrong time zone. If I was on the west coast my body clock would be about right. I would get tired at 11pm. That would be OK with me then I would get up and know what's the big deal about morning. Maybe I'm just fooling myself. I wouldn't fit in to the main stream anyway. 'Morning person' or not, I still would have to deal with gray days and on the west coast I couldn't afford to be alive.
The last couple days I have just been a mess mentally. I am sure glad I have all my animals to be with. They keep me from going all together 'under' till I can get back to happy. Finding this place to write and maybe get some feedback is also helping. Thanks
Speaking from one on the
Speaking from one on the west coast...it SO doesn't have sun here. And my body clock is all off! I am up at night and sleeping during the day....I can't even figure out what day it is...so I am not sure the west coast is better. But one always wants to be where one isn't, huh? Anyway, hang in there. The sun will come out again, I promise.