All I can talk about is my fear of loosing a friend for whom I declared feelings of hypomanic love.  I said that if our genders wre reversed i would want to pregnant by her. That freaked her out. She was going through shit irl I was helping her with and then I dumped that on her. I'm giving her space at the moment to decide whether she wants to maintain contact with me, I hope we can stay friends. She informs my Art and poetry. I hate having been inconsiderate to her and the thought of loosing contact with her :(

This is my current madness.