oh well. I can only get on the main site. I hope everyone is doing well. I like the little blog corner over there. I take technical difficulties too personally, like the icarus godz are mad at me or something...but I know that is silly. I take way too many things personally. LIke when my cat carried in a butterfly the same day I decided it was my medicine, and it was dead. But my friend told me medicine sometimes will come in this way too. I had seen about 30 alive ones all in the same day and it was all magical and then my cat brought one in dead. Well. I did not see it. My friend tried to protect me from it, eased me into it. I take too many "signs" personally. Some signs are right on...

Right now really I am in a crisis. I can split up like this. Someone here is leaving here.It has not been healthy for either of us and I am really in one part of me freaking out....I turn the switch off tho. I get into technical difficulties and butterfly medicine. I will cry later when he goes to the bus station. I was about to go to the crisis center.

We both were well meaning. I can't figure it all out right now. love, n