Erm,

I've never had a blog before.  The technological age somewhat baffles me.  But it's pissing it down, it's dark as night and I was gonna go and do some gardening but just toooo grim.  So.  Not even sure if this is gonna work as I hope but....

I had loads to say which is why I started this but perhaps I'll need to come back later.  Anyway hello, feel free to call by and say hello on here I suppose it's a bit like a doorbell but not one like mine that makes me hit the ceiling when it goes off.  The person stays on the other side for as long as it takes for you to feel like opening.

 I've been reading a lot lately.  Been reading a book about development of conciousness and spirit unfolding.  Suddenly realised that I hadn't questioned the where of spirit but really inspiring to read.  Talks about spiritual development individually and culturally as a world view and how modernity has reduced the I and We of the internal worlds to the it of science and how we need to progress beyond that rather than return to some sort of past magical or mythical way of viewing the world.  It talks about the positives of enlightenment as well as the negatives.  Anyway I can't read this book quick enough.  It's fed my need for hope which I had totally lost sight of.  Maybe I will try to read something that is totally 'anti' this afterwards as I can feel the potential for thinking I have developed a higher state of consciousness than most people which I can see is arrogant but I really can't help but believe what this book says it makes so much sense.  People who have a 'world-centric' world view as opposed to 'ethnocentric'  are further progressed, they see everyone as equal rather than just those who are similar to them.  Hence I am more progressed than a fascist... Makes sense... I think so. 

I sometimes think my (our?) painful mental goings on reflect those of the 'out there'.  When I am up I am progressing and when I am down I am being dragged back and held under water by the way others see the world which squashes me.

Anyway this is probably really simplistic but it feels like a revelation to me at the moment after months of nothingness...  Enough for now I think or neither I nor anyone else will want to read this as it will be too long.