Truth be told, I am good looking and I've had my share of boyfriends in the past. But ever since I got sick, or atleast I realized I was sick and got treatment, I forgot how to control my heart. It was easy back then, boy liked girl and girl liked boy back. If it worked out, it was good. But if it did not work out, there were always more boys in the pond. But now, it's like the pond has turned into a fish bowl with one fish to look at and adore. I went on two dates with one guy. Two dates, means nothing to most people. But to me is was enough to make the decision, do i like him? Beyond all my force, I do. I wish he would to. But he hasn't said he does or he does not...which is horrible...because the anxiety of his answer is killing me, destroying the peace and calmness I enjoyed before I went on those two dates. So, the question remains, to date or not to date?