Lately the search has been on in my mind for a way to get out those feelings and thoughts which are peculiar to my illness. I do not feel comfortable having such posts on my main website. I also have a livejournal, but I wish to not focus on it there either. I've been often accused of having too many journals. I say, there is no such thing!

This (theicarusproject) is quite perfect. I love message boards! I miss them. There used to be more active boards on line, but now people are much more interested in "blogging" which I think has created less of a community feeling. Blogging has aliented me. So here I am, creating one. My hope is that the community setting here will be different than other such sites. Also, I love the activism aspect. I really need to get involved.

There has been a real problem with repressing everything in order to seem "normal" (which I have never accomplished). I am one of those people who needs to be seen, heard, read. Maybe I am an egoist; so be it.

Here is where I will dive headfirst into everything and anything and feel not ashamed, but empowered!

Now, let's hope I feel the same tomorrow.