So I have had an interesting anomoly happen over the last week or two. I realized that the people I try to befriend are people who don't have time for me. And that somehow I resist trying to make friends with people who do have time for me. It's like I am torturing myself!  So I am deciding to move further away from those farther away from me and closer to those who like spending time with me and how the time to. I have a very busy schedule too. And I definitely value my alone time, but after a while, just a little human contact outside of work and school hours would be nice. And I can't get it with the set-up I have going on with people who don't want/have time for that. So I am investing more in some peer relationships that will hopefully work better than my relationship with M, who frankly, just kinda dissed me.

I understand that she is just dealing with too much shit but I don't have to take it. I feel like I'm always waiting for her to want to be with me. And I don't need to try to get her to want it. If she doesn't she doesn't so now I move on. Where I am not sure. I have some ideas, but don't know quite where yet. So it is all unknown territory. Oh well, at least it isn't boring.