Why am I doing here?

 I know that this blog will probably go unread but I thought that I should write something, anything.  At this moment I am completely confused.  I have a very unclear diagnosis but I'm sure something's wrong and it's not ADD...or Asperger's...or schizophrenia.  My neuropsychiatrist just says that I have "a mood problem".  Way to generalize it, Dr. Ford.

 So what's wrong?  I don't know.  I just don't care about anything anymore, nor do I care what others think about that.  I'm failing one or two of my classes and I'm not caring at all.  I just want to get through this semester so I can try again some other time.  The things I used to do I can't get myself to do anymore.  It's like I walking through some boring, depressing dream where nothing happens and I don't feel anything.

 No medicine, please.  I'm sick of gaining and losing weight and struggling to stay awake in class.  I want to understand myself.  Why I'm on cloud nine one day and in the darkest depths of hell the next.  Why I can't think and actually prefer not to anyway.