well.

i just went to see the brazilian girls at club soda, and they were great.

too bad my mood ruined the whole thing. i had to keep reminding myself that they were playing great, etc. i just wanted to leave, run home, and make a scene too, yell at peter about how bad the concert was, etc. i've been struggling with REALLY negative thoughts, violent thoughts, the kind of thoughts that can't be said out loud. i get like this mixed state sometimes, just really really irritable. i've got it under control i think... i just keep talking to people, letting them know i'm in a "bad mood", so i can at least have the freedom to not be "super happy fun" person.

i'm down to 50% of my original dosage of effexor, maybe that's what's throwing me for a little irritable loop.

i see the psych tomorrow. tomorrow's another day, another chance to wake up on the healthy side of things.