I want to die

Submitted by squirrelABC on Fri, 08/15/2008 - 7:24pm

I really wish I could die right now. Work wouldn't like that too much. But they can always find someone to replace me, it's not like I am irreplaceable. I have a particular friend I want to detach from first so she doesn't know. This would tear her up. I don't want her to be around if I have to be admitted again or if I hurt myself again or anything like that. I am trying to tell her that and I'm not sure if she gets that. I think she doesn't think I am serious. But I am. I need her to stay away first. I am working on that. I wish there was another way.

You are irreplaceable

Submitted by tarakali on Fri, 08/15/2008 - 10:04pm.

squirrelABC, You sound very tired and the deep despair comes through in your words: that there are a number of things going on in your life; like a double whammy at once. Your job sounds like twenty shades of crap, but you are irreplaceable; not just for your job, but for your life. I hope you are OK and are feeling a little different from when you wrote your entry; that you are safe. Please believe me when I say, that I have been there (if that helps) and please live through another day. And, you are irreplaceable; not just being hokey though it may come through that way. There is only one of you in the world. Stay alive. Please stay alive. Keep breathing into the next moment.