Since the age of 6, I've had Schizophrenia. Or at least, that's what the mental health physicians have told me. I don't really feel insane. I don't experience delusions or hallucinations. All I feel anymore is disassociation and I attribute that to the medication I'm taking. Lately, I've been wondering if I should stop taking it. It's called Geodon for anyone who's curious. The physician can't explain why I'm still having disassociation. He says it should have stopped along with all the other symptoms. But what other symptoms? All I heard were voices, and they're gone. They've been gone for so long, I don't even remember what they sounded like. I want to stop this medication. Life is becoming meaningless and dull. I feel useless and used up. I want to feel alive again. I need feedback on what will happen if I do stop taking the Geodon. Is it the right thing to do? It's my choice. I'm 18 now, so I can decide for myself, but I don't know if it's the right choice. I need guidance, and this seems to be the right place to come to. Any feedback would be gratefully accepted.