Wow. I haven't been here in over two years. I don't really know what happened. I've been reading over my old entries and find myself in the exact same place I was before, angry, tired, unsure, behind enemy lines. For anyone who may be interested in such trivialities I have completed my graduate degree in psychology and am working at Johns Hopkins University, in my bizarre, subversive attempt to inject critical thoughts into the minds of these upper/middle class college drones most of whom wait with baited breath for the day we find a psychopharmaceutical cure for the human psyche and rid ourselves of this pesky subjective experience once and for all.

As for becoming a counselor, offering alternatives to biomedical bondage...I find myself unsure. When I think of how many people have been told to shut up and take their drugs and worse, how many people have been brainwashed until they believe that what has been done to them against their will is good and right and made them much better, despite the fact they have become completely numb I am imbued with the fiery rage of a thousand supernovas.

However, when I think of somehow trying to balance out these horrors the idea of pissing into the wind comes to mind. Maybe James Hillman was right, maybe there is no compromise in the field of psychology. Maybe the times of trying ot start a revolution within the current system has passed. Maybe, just maybe, its time to overthrow this system, raze it to the ground and build something new. Is it even right for me to psychically patch people back up just to send them back onto the bloody battlefield of this society? Or must my energies be focused on resistance, rebellion, and the fight ahead?

Can I do both? Is there a middle ground? Or is that just another way of remaining neutral?

Benignly Yours,

thebenignconspiracy