This reminds me of Kurt Cobain.  That was what he wanted to name In Utero (according to his journals).  Stay strong. 

Miss Divine,

Hi I don't think we have met... but your predicament really touched me.  I thought it might help if "we" could think things through together. 

First off, I don't know your history, but I do have to throw a flag on the play for your current pdoc.  Her "announcement" was very badly done.  And frankly, it makes me suspicious of her conclusions.

Bottom line: you may want to get a second opinion. 

So I am going to bring in some more data, to give you some context to put her opinion in.

1)  MANY beepers do not respond to meds.  That does not make them "not beepers."  It just makes them med "resistant."  (sorry for using that word, but I hope you get my point.)

2)  Effexor withdrawal turns everybody into Borderline Personalities.  For God's sake!

3)  Many "borderlines" do well with bipolar meds.

4) Many beepers do well with "borderline" therapy.  I always forget which anacronim.  DBT?

5) I have been diagnosed with both BP and BPD at different times.  There are weird stigmas with both of them. 

6)  I did not "choose" my borderline traits.  They came out of my life experience.  For me, they were probably triggered when my brother was born.  I was 18 months old, at the phase of learning the "persistence of objects," a crucial understanding for not cause attachement problems.  My dad was in the army, my mom was living in the barracks in a new state, she was only 23, and my brother had Down's Syndrom. 

So no wonder she "checked out," or whatever she did, and no wonder I have had a lot of anxiety about whether people are going to be there for me.

7) some doctors see BP and BPD on a spectrum, anyway.

8) frankly, from the tiny slice of your life that you have shared here, you don't sound borderline to me.  you do sound like you have bipolar.

9) It's not your fault.  in fact, your tendency to internalize you extremely insensitive pdoc's conclusion sounds like a depressive response, not a borderline response.

10) when you are in a good space, look up the symptoms of borederline.  draw your own conclusions.

11) the more I write, the more pissed off I am at your pdoc.

12) even if you are borderline, its still not your fault.

13) it took me 10 years to find a cocktail that worked for me.  don't give up.  if your pdoc wants to give up that is fine... find another pdoc.

keep fighting the good fight, sister.

(((((hugs)))))

~Indigo