So, since the hospital something has shifted for me. I am not feeling quite as depressed. Something about a tiny reminder about how bad things could be (I was institutionalized for the better part of my childhood and some of my adulthood) has helped. I am also taking some supplements from my doctor so that is probably helping some. I had some vitamin deficiencies. And I am trying to spend more time with people and not isolate myself so much. I have also let go of some relationships that were probably bringing me down. Right now I am trying to keep things light and having some fun. I get WAY too serious and that fucks things up for me big time. So I am working on that.

Other than that, I'm just kinda hangin in.