Ok so after some email conversations back and forth stuff has been cleared up a bit more.....I swear I am the ONLY person who does BETTER with less body language cues! LOL I tend to project so much, and dissociate when it gets even the least bit threatening that I do well with written word but anything else and I have trouble relating interpersonally to ANYONE. Pretty much. As long as I remain unattached I'm ok but the second I start liking someone or have feelings one way or the other about keeping someone in my life.....then it's absolute chaos and disorganization. I can't do it. I project too much onto the other person trying desperately to protect myself, all the while it's not helping to protect me from danger anymore, just serving to destroy relationships! Oui!

At least I am going back to therapy to work on it.