I feel very bad for all this. Why do I get to have better psychiatric treatment than someone else? Why do I get to have AC when others don't? Why do I get to have health insursance? Why do I get a home?

I feel like if I get better and if I became happy, I am abandoning all beings that suffer right now. I need to keep all our stories in my head, so no one is abandoned and forgotten the way I was. If I do something frivolous like art or watch a movie, I am a bad person for not being the witness of all the suffering in the world.
 

i wrote to leonard peltier again. it was a silly letter. well i wrote from the heart. it was not all silly and maybe he can get a laugh out of the silly parts. i sent him a wolf picture i drew before.
 

poem of resistance

I can't get into the discussion board now so I will blog here a while. Here is a something on Mental Slavery from Myspace where I do Project Bluebird.