After a year in england, every doctor i have seen has told me that it is unfortunate that i was raised in a drug based culture and they would like to, in time, see me taken off my medications. I have, unhappily, admitted defeat and decided to stop taking all of my medication. I have very little doubt this is a terrible idea but fighting for this is exhausting, emotionally taxing, and upsetting. I only hope that if I am right about myself and my mental state, they will reconsider this decision before it's too late. 

Contrary to every piece of advice i've ever given, my experience, and my past, i am stopping all my medication tonight(without having been directly instructed to do so). I lost the battle.

I'm trying to figure out how the fuck i'm supposed to....survive i guess. "i'm my own worse enemy" eh?

So i know i've posted this on different forums and shit, but i've only just figures out how to do it. From now on i will only be posting in blog form. 

TEASER- reflecting on gains and losses of the last year. 

prblems sleeping possibly linked to being a trigger how do i solve the sleeping problems and eliminate teh trigger?

this is some shit writing and still mildly unintresting. you have been warned. 

Just some basic info