Instead of focusing on 'illness', focus on 'recovery', instead of saying 'i'm down', say 'i'm trying to be better'. Language is the key to change!

And no matter what it was like before...I have changed me forevery. No matter what may happen in the future...it is all changed and will be changed and I may never react in extreme's again because of the actions I have taken.

Maybe it's when you have nothing left to live for that you are finally free to do anything.