hi there,

now I am thinking about all kinds of things from the world of dark moon and fallow gardens, things like tarot cards and sex and chocolate and creaking doors and silver and green and still water and sailing ships and wind and summer and burdock and birth...

It's been so nice to see everyone's responses to the last blog post and forum post I put up, the one about gender and sex. It's funny -- I'm realizing now that part of why my art and my writing dried up for a while is because some part of me was trying very hard not to feel, and if I was not feeling, then there could be no honest bubbling up in the way that spills into art and words. And so there wasn't.

A lot has been erupting out of me lately about gender and sex and control and fear. I got an e-mail today that triggered all kinds of old heartache and sinking stones in the stomach, and ended up writing a bunch of things down... this is an excerpt: