had a few hours sleep. oh man, need to watch out for cayenne when you have ibs. it seems. still i am grateful to be able to pee again. that was a nightmare.

it is a weird thing to be semi hypomanic and sick at the same time. i am doing better tho i think. something is better. i think i have the flu. it may be just that.

I've been trying to figure out how to define me medically.

I can't figure it out.

Some sort of strange ultra-sensitive/super creative/heart-wrenching mental illness.

cayenne is great. i think it is helping at least one issue i babbled on about too much, but really.

i posted a comrade jesus picture in my stumble upon blog, i will probably lose some friends. he looks like che.

i am back to total sicky self again. but i have hope this time that it will pass...it has already and it will again. i am back to having a struggle just making it to an appointment.

i hurt all over my body. i need someone who will look at the whole picture. only naturopaths do that it seems these days and that may be the way to go.