i forgot to say...i first saw my grandma and me together in a flash crossing the border, as if i tuned into another dimension, but it was mexico there.

because there is time

i could be freaking out
to the end of time
and he could pull me back
somehow safe
in his arms

he's got the sun
beaming in him

woke up with bad head ache and snot filled head again. no sudafed. no coffee. running out of things. i hve tea tho. i wake up having to pee alll the time too. ugh. i am so tired.

i need to watch this movie a friend did so i can write him finally. it has been too long. well i went a year without being able to focus much on movies.

i want to help start an icarus project here. i know a lot of people who have bipolar. we just find each other somehow. i just need a bit more consistancy.

he was on here soooo long. i was sleeping at least some. he translated some buesa poems, very nicely.