i'm back here again

its hard for me to look into the eyes of my partner when expressing complicated emotions because i dont want him to see how awful i feel, about myself or whatever it is that i am expressing to him. i honestly feel and believe that if i was more attractive, my pleasure in our love making, would be more of a priority for him. my thoughts drift to my disconnect with mass media and societal acceptances. me or please me?

Damn, that was fun.  I haven't done that since I've been to the dentist's office as a kid...

I am a queer lesbian.