This blog is so good for me. Really. It gives me somewhere to write down whatever is bothering me at the moment and figure things out in another format.

What the fuck am I doing? How did I not think this through? My ex is coming to sleep over in this tiny studio apartment. Tomorrow.

So....I can't stop thinking about how much I like this boy.

Sex fantasies about my ex, as well as some more romantic feelings of missing him like hell.

First day of tapering off the effexor. One brain shiver, not too bad at all. Maybe after a few days like this I'll try to email the n.p. to see if she'd be alright with me tapering off faster.

At group I got really fucking pissed off that this girl. Well, not at the time. At the time I just cried. I am trying. Every day I'm doing one errand. That's enough.

Fuck, fuck, fuck. I'm going to group tomorrow morning and I'm nervous it's going to suck and I'm going to have nothing to say or too much to say or just really not want to say anything.