"If madness isn’t what biopsychiatry says it is, what is it? If we don’t agree with what biopsychiatry says, then we probably don’t agree with the treatment practices. For us to have some kind of intelligible answer to a first-year psychiatry intern who can tell you: it’s a brain disorder and every minute that it’s not being medicated, there’s irreparable damage being done.  The people who fund the research are the big phama companies that psychiatry represents.  A psychiatrist now can see 30-40 clients a day. Psychiatry says: this group of Icarus folks can sing Kumbaya all you want, but we own it.  I don’t believe that."

Just to get it out of the way: I really should be doing homework right now. I have a midterm exam on Wednesday and I'm not fully confident on the essay questions.

I hate this so much. I feel fucking awful. I'm crying almost every day.  The only way I avoid it is by watching stand up on youtube until I'm too tired to do anything but go to sleep.

Awakened, too often.

Oh my god the zine fest is today. I am pretty excited, and as you can also see, I am staying up "late" once again.

Today I will start referring to my own "mental illness" and "psychiatric diagnoses" as "inner disjointedness." I will not allow the industry to define who I am.

In response to asking people to suggest ways to get regular sleep on the Facebook group for TIP, these were some good points made. This is more for me to be able to look at later if need be for the suggestions. I'm not sure about the whole light therapy thing, though. Have to think about it some more.