So...despite quitting I am at work now. I have another couple of weeks left. I am learning more and more how terrified I am and it shows. My coworker told me I look like a scared cat.

Well guys, I am almost SURE I am about to have a psychotic break at this point! My thoughts have been racing nonstop for 3 days.

Life in the margins....experiencing extreme mood states again. Lasting only a couple of hours and then subsiding. Although the ruminating goes on for quite some time. Nonstop....

So I am starting with a new therapist on next Thursday. I know this is the right thing to do. I was not successfully getting my point across to the other one.

So things are going ok I guess except I have somehow had something brewing for a while. I got suddenly really angry earlier this weekend for no apparent reason.

Having some trouble these days. Can't seem to find my bearings. Went away from my therapist and all of my friends.

So work has been ridiculous lately. I have been assaulted my some of the girls and the police has been involved and the house is in crisis....

Debreifing scheduled for 10:45am tommorow.