He said he doesn't want to be dramatized at. He's mad. He doesn't want me around anymore.

It's like this....

So I sent an email  to a friend of mine who I have been quite angry at for some time now. I finally told him why I was so angry. He read it. I doubt he will respond.

So I have had an interesting anomoly happen over the last week or two. I realized that the people I try to befriend are people who don't have time for me.

Well, it seems as though this is just another time in my life where I am a textbook example of attachment failure in infancy! Boy is this shit painful!

So things are tough again. I guess I prefer to have friends I can actually talk to, but I don't so whenever I write in here it is usually negative, sorry.

So since I last wrote a lot has gone on. I have been having trouble reacting to the girl's aggression at work and am going to take anger management classes.

So things are a bit crazy again in my head. Not spinning, just so isolated. And no way out of the isolation because the alternative is worse. I just keep digging the grave deeper with people. So I have had to withdraw and reflect and just take time alone again. I don't realy mind alone once I get used to it. It's just hard sometimes when I am so isolated. It seems better for now though. I get by. That's all that matters.